We participated in Soul Food Sunday with Soul Food USA this evening. As always it was an uplifting experience that helped me feel connected and grateful. I had few interesting things happen that I wanted to share.
The first was as I handed a older man in a wheel chair a sandwich he said, “Well this must make you feel good about yourself, you make a few PB&J’s give them to some old people and you can go back to living in your big house with out feeling too guilty.” It made me think why is it I choose to spend some of my Sunday evenings feeding the homeless? I could justify it to say its to teach my children gratitude so maybe they wont complain every time they don’t like what I cook them for dinner. Or its because I genuinely care about others and feel for those who have less than me. Or I could say I feel so grateful for the blessings I have and I want to pay it forward in the little ways I can. But as I passed out the rest of the sandwiches I had in my bag I really examined it. Why I am here? Am I trying to prove something? And I over compensating for something? Am I trying to one up someone else?
I know part of it is for my kids. Another huge part is habit, this is what my mom always did and does so now its a part of who I am; its just what we do. Another part of it is I just feel better afterwards like I do when I go on a hike or get all the laundry done. Its a better use of my time even if sometimes I’d rather stay home watching Pretty Little Lairs. I am not sure if that last one is good or bad I’m still pondering it.
The second thing that happened was kind of funny. I was standing there holding my last sandwich and the crowd cleared a little and another volunteer asked me if I had been offered water yet. Yup, she thought I was one of the homeless women. So that is just reminder to me you never know someone’s situation or what’s going on underneath just by looking at them, and that I probably should have showered today.
If you’d like to join Soul Food USA they serve every first and third Sunday of the month.